We are not Allah (God)!

الســــــــــــــلام عليكم

When I was starting to write in this space, the end of the year was just in the corner. I skipped on my evening workshop for reasons. I followed up the progress of my application.

Luckily, my request was answered. I learned deeply what the meant interpretation was used on that paper. I really satisfied by the information given to me. Indeed we can not jump into drastic conclusion.

I `m optimist to what is going to happen. I already worked to achieve what I had planned earlier. My 2009 could note very important history in my life. But, I`m not a god. Here come the faith to us. No matter how hard you pay your time, your struggle...at the end of the day, all things must go to the Allah's hand.

To be a gentleman, some experiences were required. Do not rely on your aggressiveness alone. Patient, grateful, obedient and humble must flourish your life. And this is the true color of life. Nothing to lose...

My Regards

What shape your personality?

السـلام عليكم

The end of hijri year just passed by. Here and there people were talking about new determination. Which after all, we can conclude in one phrase "the best" for the new year. As among muslim there were individuals taking their "hajj" for that year will find a new page of their planning in coming life.

My situation is still the same. Nothing keeps changing even the new hijri just arrived. I didn't listen to any good news of my thesis 's progress. I dare to say, this feeling the only one who can share was an ex-student of PhD. Not all of them. Might be 5 % of them had overcome this situation.

Can any of you imagine, 10 months waiting for the report, the only one left...even the rest of the examiners had submitted the report less than three months... the remain is the only one. How can you make a person for this 10 months waiting in vain? Since this entry was submitted no sign appeared to be a guide for the actual result.

To Allah I submit all my hope and patient. I should learn something (s) from this case...and on 29 0f Disember 2009, I will again pay for my registration..

Professor : Too Close

السلام عليكم

About three weeks ago, we got a professor in our place. He came from our place. Not some where in this globe. From here, a totally local person, humble and low profile. I knew him not too much, but lately we have a long chatting. That happened shortly before he got his professorship.

I was impressed for having a professor around. I was personally experiencing a good memory those days when my first duty to propose a research being held at Melaka Parade around 2004. I stayed in the same apartment with a professor (now working at Shah Alam) and this new professor. I know this memory will inspire me to be like both of them. Some thing that I could not share here.

Lastly, congratulation for him. You really make us too close to the rank of professorship...May my efforts and endurances be blesssed by Allah and rewarded for here and here after...

End Of The Semester

السلام عليكم

It was a month ago when my last note appeared on this blog. Since there were a lot of particular matters to be completed regarding to my duty as a lecturer. Our department has started a new approach for on going test where there were no more final exam for foreign language students. They were required to work on a project (such drama, documentary, news and etc...) to complete their subject.

For sure, this first time attempt will need a lot of reviews and comments for the perfectness. By looking at the result and students performence, this project secured student score for the subject.

Personally, I suggest a specific and clear guide for marking process introduced by the department or committees. By the way, lecturers will not suffer to give a justice marks as posibble to their students far from bias or vindictive sentiment.

Wassalam.

- -- / ( ) = correction

السلام عليكم

Yesterday, I went to KT for appointment with my main supervisor. I need to look into my draf again. Some minor errors have been detected by his eyes. We accounted the number of pages, they were around 30 pages.

I was firmly determined to complete these corrections. Yes, my friend was ready to give me, his hand. I found his helpful hand to make my corrections appear. I felt very relief to this point.

When the clock showed around 3.00 p.m, I was trying to meet any shop for adjusting my draf. Unluckily, no one was ready to accept my offer. So by 4.00 p.m, I called back my supervisor to inform the situation.

When I arrived at Dungun, I directly went to my friend`s stationary. It was still opening. So my job was going to settle. The repair of the draf will be soon done by today. I will make a call to confirmation. (The payment for thesis examination is cost RM 1K has been paid).

My regards

Yes...submit now!

Assalamualaikum

Finally, I got the permission for submitting my final report to external examiners. They are both professors from local universities. I`m really impressed to be acknowledged such this thing. Two professors for your thesis evaluation and correction, quiet tough what?? (I hope I will learn something).

One is quiet known in Malay-Arabic-Persian language and literature. Having a lot of publication nationally and internationally. He also has an interest in translation- the area my thesis is speaking of-and really encouraging young scholars to widen and streghthen this area. He was cited to say: "We have not enough successor in area of Arabic-Malay-Arabic translation, so who is supposed for going to develope this? ".

The second one is well-known in Arabic Poetry and having a lot of publication in various languages such Malay, Arabic and English. He as well, actively translating Arabic texts into Malay such as a collection of articles in Arabic News. He also contributed in dictionary for special purposes. His publications are having a long journey.

To sum all, I`m proud to have them. May they give me a very special treatment. May Allah bless all of us...

A Laptop

السلام عليكم

I was really rushing for 2-weeks ago, and today everything start to slow down. There are just some small tasks to touch up. I need to wait and follow any progressing from my room. Today I will resume my writing, especially my thesis.

In fact, my heart is talking to me to hurry and keep writing whenever I `m. But, I`m not taking to any action. Last month I was thinking to have a new and handy laptop. I expect to be more chance to write or drafing when I`m not in my room. This is a good idea. Since there are a lot of new laptops with a friendly price offer their costumers to choose.

I wish to have one. But I should consider the finance situation for this year. If I have an extra income for my consultation work, I`ll keep it to purchase a new laptop. And my pray to Allah to give soul and guide me to write.

Says said: "Something that rushed to develope most of the times doesnt have strong foundation".

Salam

Busy

السلام عليكم

I was really busy around 2 months ago. My hand could not even type one single phrase for this space. In fact I surf internet frequently, every day. But I do not have enough strength to write. Let say, I`m now totally spending my focus on my thesis. Begining on first weeks of Ramadhan I meet my supervisor to read my thesis, chapter by chapter.

We reached at fourth chapter just now. for coming two weeks, my supervisor will be attending course. This means I have some breaks for my next reading. Even my heart refuses to stop. But patient is cure for many things...

This morning my junior texts me asking me some advices regarding to persuing study in M.A. level. I really want to share. We need to meet first for discussion. Good luck in advance for him.

Wassalam.

Our House

السلام عليكم

Our house has a space to be used. We are planning to build a car porch in near future. We are also thinking to have a small and comfortable landscape. At the moment, we just plant a flowers and some of fruits.

Three days ago, we saw our corn has a flower. It will take more 3 weeks to have a corn to appear. We are very excited to see our corns be harvested. There are about 60 trees we have.

4+1

السلام عليكم

I`m among the nonbeliever of the number`s luck. What to do with the number?. I wonder when people pay more than thousand for the plate number they want. They wait under a huge tree asking for number. When they have a luck number, they will win a bid. Numbers are every for 4D`s, 6D`s lover. They play with number days and nights.

Number is still the same, even it was used for daily instrument aid. There still a misuse of number.

Today I ponder to very significant number in my life. 4 +1. Very interesting combination. See how these numbers seen in my perspective.

• 1 /4 I started working as a lecturer.
• My punch card`s number is 14
• 4 years 1 month I got promoted.
• I guess when I was 41 years old, I`m a professor.

Can this happen in reality?. For professorship, I wish it was earlier more than 3 years. I plan, and Allah will give what we need.

No possible is impossible.

RM 1000.00

السلام عليكم

This morning at 4.00 pm, I recieved my journals collection that cost RM 1000.00. I `m quite sure these journals are not really used to most of Malaysians. I`m lucky to have this collection.

Thanks to Darul Syakir For supporting My endeavours !

Guess why this collection worths me a lot??

Journal`s Article Or Academic Book ?

السلام عليكم

It takes about one week ( in fact I have started last year ) to search any university or organization`s publisher having refereed journal in my field. Of course I found and read one-two articles. They are really different in term of style and focus. What I`m afraid a lot is there are no co-authors. All the writers are Docs or Profs. So where do I`m?.

Anyway, I must test the water. High level Journal as seem to me, not much probability to expect. So, there are other ways I must follow. An academic book. Recognized by experts in the field. Why not I try this way?.

I have in mind some ideas that will realize my academic book. But, I need to learn from others experiences. The way they perform, their arguements, Q&A etc. Lets make a little research before I start my work.

Wasslam.

Acknowledgement

السلام عليكم

It was my pleasure to express my thanks to all fellow friends. You all were contributing to my achievement. I really indebted to all seniors especially P.M Dahari, who personally came to my room and continiously advising me to write without fail.

I also, secretly indebted to Ahmad Faiz who guided me for my first day in Terengganu. I always be around his room to spend my time in term-break. From there I was invited to prepare 2 paper works on Public Admin by somebody outside. I earned about RM 100.00. Wow ! What a big deal. After I got my own room ( shared ) with a roomate who was telling the importantness of research, books and presentations. I kept his tips every day I was in. He is among the writers that inspires me a lot.

In fact, there were fellow friends now completing their thesis on Phd gave me a bundle of thought, critism and advices. Not to forget, current fellow altogether having a tea in along the road in Dungun. You gave too many ideas and inspiration.

Everyone, in or out were contributing something to me in developing my skills and experiences. Dear fellows from UM, UKM, UIA and all I can not mention here. You are great !!!. Finally, personally this is just a begining for more challenges and endurances. Pray me be succeed.

Wassalam

The End

السلام عليكم

At last, the end day has come. It was on friday, before Jumaat pray`s time. We took our lunch at Khalifah Bistro, Section 7. It looked like we are celebriting. Not really. We are fours, me, Saiful, Asri and Dahlan ( Penang branch ). After performing Jumaat`s pray, we were heading to a cinema at Jusco in Bukit ( I forgot already ).

We watched "The Happening". To me this is my first time entering cinema. It was interesting. But the movie was a little bit mysterious. Never mind, at least I was there.

At 7.30 pm, after finishing our dinner, we set off from Presscot hotel. We were 5 including Saiful`s student. What a nice journey. It took 5.30 to reach Dungun. Not bad for me.

We pray this PTK4 is the last, before we step in for PTK5 as soon as possible.

Get ready for DM52. Wassalam.

PTK4 - Day3

السلام عليكم

3 days have passed by. It is about 40 % of PTK course has finished. Today, the really activity has just started. Public speaking is the first start.

As determined by organizer, using English is compulsory. My turn is today. No 6. I was little bit nervous initially. But I overcame that situation in successful manner, if I can say.

Now, the next turn is to present my assignment, product and research proposal. I pray to be more performed when doing presentation. I hope I can do the best, and pass this stage happily.

Well, I need to revise my power point for tomorrow's presentation. Good luck for me.

Wassalam.

PTK4

السلام عليـكم

Here, again I will attend PTK4 at Shah Alam. As ever, this is a very bored course. I wish not to attend this 4 but 5. But I have no choice in my hand for now.

Hopefully I can succeed this course. No reattending, O Allah help me to pass this stage...

The trip will be on saturday 7 of June 2008. Mr Saiful offers me to join him with his car. Very good idea. I suggest to invite Mr Asri to come along us. So, we can share the burden of gas expenses.

See me at Presscot again.

Wassalam.

Reading And Writing ???

Salam And Ahlan,



Thanks god ( alhamdulillah ) for giving me a lot of energy to finish about 2-4 pages of my writing. [ personally I am almost doing writing every day. But to reach 2-4 pages is not tough unless it is pertaining to my research or Phd data`s analysis ]

The most important what I want to express here is my reading in the last month.


It was unforgotten experience to read the book by Prof M. Kamil. I feel like reading Hamka's work which I appreciate it too much. I strongly recommend who is doing or will do their Phd to read this book.


I enjoy reading this book and will get it to myself. It really discovers a different side of Phd`s experience.

ألله كريم

What I`m doing now...

Salam & Ahlan,

Reading such material will help to improve reading skill. In some circumstances, I rely on reading to gain my ability in foreign language. To meet an opportunity speaking in foreign language is quiet difficult. Since I `m surrounded by Malay speakers only.

Today I subscribe to foreign language magazine and newspaper. For English, I tend to read Reader`s Digest and Time. Meanwhile daily Star and NST I could read them in my office. As for Arabic, I already subscribed "Ahlan Press", the only Arabic publication in Malaysia.

These materials worth too much for me. My future plan is to be prominent writer in three languages. I think and do confident that an ability to use many language will increase understanding of cultures and worldviews of others.

At present, my blog is very useful and effective to me practising my writing in English. It does not mean to conceit when my blog appears in English. A lot of things I can do to practise my writing skill though there are no teachers. Again I can assure my writing get published.

I`m waiting an Arabic script facilities in the blog. Then I have a chance to improvise my Arabic and see how it will be published !

Salam Wa ila al-Liqa'